Kendal smiled up at him. "Thank you, Sir." Oh, my gosh! I just called him Sir! Oh, I love how that sounds when I say it! Her smile caught light, and she beamed.

Mike ran his fingers through her hair, lightly massaging her head as he began to speak. Kendal closed her eyes and moaned softly.

"I have been reading up on some of the things that we talked about before," Mike said. "I understand a little better now. I still don't know that much, but I understand why you have been feeling like this. I don't know why I just didn't sit down and listen to you. You were trying to explain things to me and I didn't want to hear it. I was confused and defensive. I am sorry about that." He brushed a tear from Kendal's cheek with his thumb.

He smiled a little, and then continued. "I have been outwardly against it, mainly because I was feeling like it was taking you away from me. That all the things you wanted were better than me, and could give you more pleasure than what we already had. I never realized that you would need me in all of this... that it was I giving you pleasure. Not those other things. Yeah, of course the toys can give you pleasure. But I notice the way you react when we use them together. Like, when I have the authority, you just seem to be in another world." Mike brushed his thumb over Kendal's lips.

"I'm not making sense. What I mean is, I want this too. I just have to get over some mixed emotions and take it slow. I have been thinking about it more and more... playing things over in my head... what I would do to you, and how you would react. You have made me explore feelings that were sealed up inside me. They turned me on and confused me. And I was scared of them. That is why every time you brought it up, I would shoot you down. I really am sorry for that."

Kendal stared up at him, holding his gaze after listening in disbelief. She swallowed, hastily rearranging her thoughts.

"Sir, I understand how you feel. I was the same way. I was so scared of even letting myself think of the way I was feeling. Urges just seemed too intense for me. But after years and years of feeling that way, I finally decided to look into the lifestyle and try to grasp why I was feeling the way I was. Reading and studying the lifestyle has made me come to terms with who I really am. I am not scared of it any longer. I just wanted us to share it together." She reached up to brush away another tear, but Mike did it for her.

"I just want to take this extremely slowly. I don't want to jump into it head first and screw things up. If it's okay with you, I'd like to keep it in the bedroom for a while, until we get used to it. It might take a very long time." Mike said. Trying to re-assure her.

"I know," Kendal replied, trying to contain her gleeful smile. She wanted to laugh out loud and hug Mike to death! She licked her lips and managed to say, "I want you to know that I couldn't be happier right now. I am looking forward to us growing and